Baby Spooniest – The short version

I was diagnosed with PCOS a year before Teddy and I started trying.  I went on Metformin.  It hated me for about the first month but we liked one another after that.

I was on Clomid from my OBGYN for 3 months when Teddy and I got serious about trying.  It didn’t help me ovulate whatsoever.

We started seeing a fertility doctor that my OBGYN referred us to.  He pushed IVF from the very start. 

I had a HCG done and was told there was slight blockage and it was slow to fill.  IVF was pushed even harder. 

We wanted to get a second opinion.  We got ALL of our medical records from the first fertility doctor.  Including the HCG results and took them to another doctor that my OBGYN suggested. 

Our new fertility doctor (Dr. C) was AMAZING from the start and during the first meeting with Dr. C we never even heard the words IVF.  In fact she said that my HCG results weren’t bad at all and gave us a lot of hope. 

We felt much much better about our options and future.  Whew….that was a good idea to get a second opinion….thanks TEDDY! 

I was on Clomid for 2 months and still no ovulation. 

Dr. C gave me the highest possible dosage of Clomid along with a trigger shot and wanted to take this next cycle very serious and possibly try IUI if I did ovulate.  A person can only be on Clomid for up to 6 months at a time and this was my last month to try with this particular medication.

We ovulated!  Whewhew!  And on a whim we decided IUI would be our best bet!  Go big or go home!  We were ready to give it our best shot and this was our best shot!   Teddy held my hand the whole way through and before we left that room we held hands and said a prayer I’ll never forget.  A moment shared with my sweet husband that might not have been our ideal way of conceiving but it was where we were and we were blessed to be there.

We waited the 2 weeks after the IUI…..

And on the second to the last day of waiting I took a pregnancy test and it was negative.  I was so sad.  But Teddy reassured me that they make you wait for a reason.

I woke up the morning of the day we were supposed to test and it was POSITIVE!  I couldn’t believe my eyes….so I took 5 more tests.  We went to Dr. C’s office that morning, had my blood drawn and sure enough….the IUI and the prayers had worked.  We were Baby carrying fools and oh so happy! 

Some people might think this post is over sharing but I want this to give someone hope that might not have any.  And if you think it’s over sharing then I’m not sure why you’ve read this far down. 

Before you are ready to start trying I suggest having your OBGYN run tests on both!  Like my dad always says….If you’re going to do something do it right.  You can’t get pregnant if you aren’t working right! 

If you or your Teddy have a diagnosis of something that will hinder you from having children don’t be scared to ask your insurance if you have to wait the 1 year before seeing a fertility doctor.   Our insurance did not make us wait the year since my PCOS was stopping me from ovulating.  You have to ovulate to get pregnant….duh. 

If you have a tug at your heart-strings to get a second opinon DO IT!  Don’t be scared!  Some doctors just aren’t a good fit and that’s why there are lots of them!  What’s right for some couples just might not be what’s right for you!  It’s that simple! 

Sorry this post has taken me so long to write….I’ve been busy going to be at 7:30 PM CST.  I’ll be back soon to touch on the much more important topics like baby bumps that are confused with overeating and tummy fat and seeing your baby move on the ultrasound the first time.  It’s pretty amazing stuff….this being pregnant. 

Lots of love,

Spooniest and Baby Spooniest

 

Confirmation of my Faith

I was confirmed on Saturday, Easter Vigil, as a Catholic.  Teddy and his family have always been Catholics and I had really come to enjoy the faith and decided to join my husband’s faith so we would be a family unit.  This included classes every Tuesday for 8 months, meeting a lot of great people who were also going through the class, but most of all diving right into a new faith with complete intrigue. 

A few days before my confirmation Ric, Teddy’s father sent me this email.  I wanted to share it with you all because it’s a wonderful email and I think everyone can appreciate his valuable words.

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Haley, I wanted to drop you a short line to congratulate your “doggedness” in learning the Catholic faith.

You & Ben have developed a strong personal relationship.  In all Christian churches, the key is developing a strong personal relationship with another guy — Jesus.  He wanted us to be one.

As Catholics we give good example and help each other on our journey.

We believe when we get to heaven, Jesus will first ask us “who did you bring with you?”, it not just saving your own butt.

There is always doubt, Mother Theresa wrote of her doubt.  We have faith to see reality beyond the physical senses.  It is not scientific truth like the law of gravity and not beyond reasonable doubt like the courtroom.

All faith communities are a compass to the “wisdom of the ages” to lead an unbroken life for you, your husband, & your kids — honor God, respect others, don’t kill, steal, lie, love your spouse more each day, don’t desire foolish stuff, be meek, comfort the suffering cause we all need help.

Welcome aboard, enjoy the ride.

Love always — Dad Ric

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Going through the classes, watching my marriage grow in ways I never imagined because of it, and really putting my faith in a new perspective has been amazing.  Something I’ll never forget.  Ever.  Thank you to those who have helped me, welcomed me, and supported me.

The song….

My sweet husband erased all my songs from my IPhone about a week ago.  We almost got divorced.  I’m not that into music at all really but that’s the issue….I couldn’t even remember what was on the darn thing I just knew I liked it….and the doozy was that I couldn’t access my ITunes account either….I mean he really screwed something up. 

Today I forgave him.  I am sitting doing some work and I have my IPhone on it’s docking station and playing what songs I took from our computer and our first dance song was on there….which I didn’t do….he must have. 

That was a sweet moment…and everytime I hear that song I think of how great it was.  The thing I don’t like about it is that in all the photos my chin is HUGE….guess that chintervention didn’t work so well.  BOO!

Here is the song:

Joshua Radin – Lovely Tonight

I need you to know this won't be broken
And all that we said will not be lost into the dawn
And you would be the last thing I saw coming
I'm still surprised

You are lovely tonight
You dear
Will guide me into the morning light
You are lovely tonight
Lay here beside me
I see the rest of my life with you

Alone we are fine but when we're two we are eternal
The moons have aligned our separate lives
Here become one
And you would be the last thing I saw coming
I'm still surprised

You are lovely tonight
You dear
Will guide me into the morning light
You are lovely tonight
Lay here beside me
I see the rest of my life with you

All my life I've lived alone without you
All this time I couldn't find a way to belong

You are lovely tonight
You dear
Will guide me into the morning light
You are lovely tonight
Lay here beside me
I see the rest of my life with you

What will you do today?

 People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
 
    Forgive them anyway.
 
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
 
    Be kind anyway.
 
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
 
    Succeed anyway.
 
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
 
    Be honest and frank anyway.
 
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
 
    Build anyway.
 
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
 
    Be happy anyway.
 
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
 
    Do good anyway.
 
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
 
    Give the world the best you’ve got anyway.
 
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God;
 
    It never was between you and them anyway.

– Mother Teresa

Somedays

Especially Mondays….I just want to come home put on a wig and have some wine.

I’m not going to pretend that it’s normal….hope your Monday was fabulous too.

Mixed Emotions

Tomorrow I will sell my first house.  The house I bought so young and worked so hard for. 

Couple days ago when my renters stuff was all gone and the house was clean I sat on my stairs and sobbed.  Teddy just stared at me like I was a serious head case.  There is so much fun I remember about my life there. 

We brought the dogs over there the other night and just let them run around and play.  Then when we were leaving Teddy said “You know honey I’m sort of sentimental too.  This house was my girlfriends house.  This is the house I fell in love with you in.”  It was super sweet.  And so true. 

Then I went home and stared at this face.  Instant happiness.

The thing about being funny….

is that it doesn’t always feel right on the tip of my tongue.  not everything that comes out is funny.  some stuff is stupid, some stuff is weird, some stuff is just plain depressing but you thought it might come off as funny.

oh i guess i should have prefaced all this with “i think i’m pretty funny”.  well the truth is i know i’m funny….i was voted funniest in my class people…so don’t try to make me think otherwise.  you want to know the funniest part about that story?  well let me just show you….

do you see me?  that’s me on the far left holding the sign….the rule for the photo shoot was to show up in a costume (since we were voted the funniest) and they would take the pic….well we (as in me and funny man class of 2000) weren’t having it….so we dressed up like the people did for “best looking” and looked way better.  i must mention that the restored 1971 vw convertible was mine as well.  the funnest car ever!  aske jesse….she was there for all the vw fun!

anywho…..i really am funny.  i make people laugh so hard sometimes they cry.  so where has all my funny gone?  where did all my wittiness go?   i mean i know people can lose fat if they exercise and chins if they do chinterventions….but can people lose their funny?  could it possibly be that i’m just too busy to be funny?  what is life if there is no funny….no laughing….no making people cry….no pissing off all the fools that dressed up for the photo shoot? 

don’t worry spooniest readers….my funny will be back and back with a vengence.